Exasperated

Today I am tired…

Today is a cloudy day for me. Not physically, but mentally.

Depression can be a bitch. While I take medication for depression, I still have “cloudy” days.

They usually are never brought on by something but I wake up and it’s there. It’s there like a weight sitting on my chest.

It’s been awhile since I last posted. Life has been so… hard.

Recently I have been feeling like a failure. As most of you know, I am currently enrolled in nursing school. I am barely surviving this semester. I rewarded myself on Monday because I finally passed a test. FINALLY. I have literally failed every single test this semester besides the one on Monday.

Why is it that I can try so hard and never be good enough? I know that I will make an incredible nurse. I mean damn, I already am a nurse (LPN) and I am amazing. I see other people around who start to study the weekend before a test and come out with an incredible grade.

Today I am tired…

I work while I go to school and today as I write this I am at work. I have finished my assignment due this weekend and finished my coffee. My peers have slept in all day or gone out with their friends. They have enjoyed the beautiful weather today.

I on the other hand have not enjoyed my cloudy day. I miss William whom I feel as if I have not seen in days. My house is dirty and needs to be cleaned. The dogs are wild because I do not get to spend enough time with them outside. My bank account is dropping no matter how hard I work. I am behind on studying and projects that are due. I have a to-do-list that is a mile long.

Today I am tired…

 

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A breath of fresh air…

Hello friends!!

It has been awhile since I last published about my crazy life and a lot has happened! So the future hubby and I took a trip to New Orleans to celebrate our engagement and then we later went up to Arkansas to see my family. I have to say that getting in the car and driving 6 hours away from all of the stress of life provides a breath of fresh air. Our vacation was beautiful. I felt so light and happy the whole trip. I got to laugh, eat good food, and wear pretty dresses instead of my ugly school scrubs. I got to cuddle with the Mr. and take daily naps. I could go on and on about how wonderful my trip was but instead I will share some pictures. Stay tuned for my  next post 🙂

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Eating beignets and enjoying a great cup of coffee @ Cafe Du Monde

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My favorite place in New Orleans!

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William bought a flower crown because obviously I am a princess. We also went to mass in  the beautiful cathedral behind us.

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I found my inner child while walking around New Orleans with William and a few of our friends. It was beautiful! The streets were full of lights, jazz music, art, and drinks. There was a section of the art gallery that promoted coloring with chalk on the street. I am not artistic so I decided to be that girl who writes names on streets. Also look at my kick butt chucks.

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Our last night in New Orleans consisted of actually feeling my age. For once I actually stayed up past 10pm. William, myself, and our friends went out to a jazz bar that was performing live music. I laughed and danced with William and drank enough to be really sleepy. It was the most fun I have had in a very long time. For once I did not feel like a grandma.

 

So I encourage you to go out and take a breath of fresh air. Go dance, drink good beer, and play with chalk!

 

-Adri